Well, I have much to post and stories to share, but lately have been too tired to sit down at the computer at night and blog. Why have I been so tired? No, it's not so much just the being a wife to the greatest husband, a mom to the most precious toddler and coolest pup, and working full time...it's more that I am exhausted because I am 10 weeks pregnant. Yep, go ahead and let that one sink in. Praise the Lord! He is so kind and gracious and we are expecting a little brother or sister for Eason come March 27th or so. Here's a picture of the little peanut from a few weeks ago.
For those who do not know, we were pregnant over Christmas, but had a miscarriage over New Years. It was tough, but we serve an amazing and awesome God! By His grace, it occurred when we were still very early in the pregnancy and it was not too physically painful. Plus, it is quite hard to be down when you have this to come home to everyday!
God in His great mercy, then allowed us to conceive before what would have been the due date of the baby that miscarried. I count that as a sweet gift from my heavenly Father. Thank you Lord. All that to say, this time around has been a stretching and growing experience for my faith. When I was pregnant with Eason, I often said, "Lord, if today is as long as I get to have him, I am thankful that I had him this long." For weeks I have wrestled with resting in God's sovereignty over this pregnancy and this baby. My joy was often extinguished by trepidation. but God, in His patient mercy, lavished me with His love and with friends who prayed for me and encouraged me. Today, I can again say, "Lord, if I only have this baby so long, I thank you that I was able to have it that long." Not to say I would not be sorely disappointed should the Lord change the course of this baby, but He is helping me to trust again in His sovereignty. For the truth is, He is the author and perfector and giver of life (mine, Warren's, Eason's, yours). So, I promise to post more, but for now, I am taking naps as often as I can get them.